One Disciple Visiting Guruji in Chandigarh

One disciple visiting guruji in Chandigarh felt heart broken at the fact that he could not get to sit close to guruji and wondered if guruji even knew of his existence. Feeling sad and dejected, he closed his eyes to pray and as soon as he did so, he saw guruji sitting with each and every disciple in the hall. It does not matter where you sit close or far. 

It does not matter if you can see him or not. Your guru will always be able to see you and is always near you. All you have to do is call out to him sin sincerely and he will be with you.

Guruji often said, Jeda mere bahut nazdeek baithda hai us da kalyaan main last wich karda haan Main ta kone wich baithe logan da pehla kalyaan karda haan. People who and try to sit close to me are the ones I bless last, I bless those who patiently sit at the back or in corners, trusting in my ability to see them even through walls.

I feel like eating paneer tikkas today. I told my mother as we were getting ready to go to guruji temple. As soon as I entered guruji temple, I completely forgot about having made such a statement. Guruji was getting ready to attend a function at a disciple home that day and asked us to join him.

After the function guruji instructed a few of us to follow his car. I presumed he was going back to the temple, but instead he drove into a five star hotel. Going straight into the coffee shop he sat down and asked us all to order whatever we wanted. I still did not remember the comment about the paneer tikkas and ordered a cold coffee and sat down to enjoy It along with guruji divine company.

I never came to know when Guruji ordered a plate of  paneer tikkas, and as it was brought to the table, guruji pushed the plate in front of me saying Aj saadi beti nu paneer tikke khan da man hai, saari plate khaa ja  Today my daughter feels like eating paneer tikkas, eat the entire plate. Never had I ever felt so loved and cherished before, and so, I ate away with tears in my eyes.

My mother and I were Sitting with Guruji

My mother and I were sitting with Guruji in his room when suddenly he said, the shiva idol at the Bada Mandir has been installed.I knew that guruji temple was being  constructed in Delhi but beyond that I knew nothing. 

I was there and I even took out a sound from the idol. I could just say yes guruji as I did not understand how he could be in Delhi when he was here with us all the time. The next day, a caretaker from the Delhi temple came with a box of sweats to meet guruji and tell him that the shiva idol had been installed the day before.

Guruji just looked at me and smiled. Similarly, we were again with guruji when he asked both my Mom and me to press his feet. Press my feet. Press my feet and I shall take a nap. My mother and I were busy pressing his feet when he woke up and asked how much time has I have already been to America. 

A saintly person visiting guruji once asked me do you think guruji is sitting here. I looked at guruji and said of course he is he sitting on his aasan can not you see him he smiled and nodded this is just his body Guruji is some where else. That when we realized that guruji had the ability to be at two or more places at the same time.

Close the Mandir Today and Tell Everyone

Close the mandir today and tell everyone I have gone out. Guru ji told my mother and I. Sukhi aunty you distribute the parshad on my behalf and after everyone has gone come we closed the temple and told everyone that guruji had gone out. We distributed the parshad from the gate to the sangat as and when they came. Some accepted his orders, took parshad and went back.

Some questioned us about his whereabouts while some got angry with us and never took the parshad. As we finished and went in, guruji told us exactly what had happened at the gate. He named the people who did not accept the parshad that day.

Do the same thing tomorrow said guruji. As instructed stood at the gate the next day to distribute the parshad. Again the same people questioned us and got angry with us, some accused us of telling lies some quietly. After we finished and went in, Guruji again gave us the details of what had happened. Guruji what was the reason behind this.

I asked Jis tarhan tusi koi cheez nu khreedan to pehla test karde ho, main bhi chela banan to pehla test karda haan. Ahankaar rab di raah te chalan nai denda. Kade bhi apne guru nu discuss na kareya karo te hamesha us di gal maneya karo Just as you test people before I make them my disciples.

He then said ego is the  is the biggest deterrent on the path of spirituality.Never question the Guru ji orders and never try to probe about your guru.

One Day as I Entered Guruji Room to Clean it I Noticed

One day as I entered guruji room to clean it I noticed a yellow patch on the green coloured carpet. Assuming someone had dropped something, I began to scrub the Patch vigorously. Just then guruji walked into the room. What happened? Asked guruji. Guruji there is a yellow patch on your carpet that I am trying to clean but  It’s not going Oh that! That patch got burned last night therefore its discolored.

Now touch it and see I have just taken out amrit from that patch as well. Although I was scrubbing the area with a dry cloth, the patch now was wet. I smelled it and it had the same divine fragrance of his amrit. The patch remained Fragrant as long as guruji was in Chandigarh.

After cleaning the temple and guruji chamber, I would then wash his clothes. Needless to say, his clothes too were drenched in divine amrit and had the same Fragrance.

I tried washing them till the fragrance could go but that was just my stupidity. The more I washed them, the stronger the fragrance grew. No matter Through how many waters I took them out of, the fragrance remained. No perfume could pass this test!

I always had a habit of collecting things that guruji discarded, things like a plaster on his finger, seeds of fruits that he ate, or an old towel or old glasses. I soon had a bagful of things belonging to guruji. I would replace his toothbrushes, sooner than they needed changing, and keep the old ones.

I even collected the dust that got swept out of his room, for me, even that was more precious than anything in the world. Guruji was obviously aware of my activities and was rather amused. If by chance I would forget to collect something of his, he would quietly push it towords me and point out Sukhmani don’t you want this I would then quickly grab it before anyone could think of throwing it away. One thing that I always had my eyes on was his shoes.

I was fortunate enough to be given his dresses as parshad but I always had my eyes on his shoes. Each time he would give them away to someone, he would look at me and smile but he never gave them to me as long as he lived in his physical body.

Every Evening we Would Bring Fresh Flowers for the Temple

Every evening we would bring fresh flowers for the temple as well as his room. I soon noticed that the ones in the temple stayed fresh for at least 3--‐4 days while the ones in his room had to be changed every day as theywould get burned. Not able to stop myself, I asked him Guruji why do the flowers in your room get burned around the edges while the onces in hall remain fresh for many days.

Sade wich jedi power hai oho ag de gole wangu hai. Jado main meditation wich baithda haan, inni power produce hundi hai ki sanu overflow karni paindi hai. Is heat naal tere phool murjha jande han. Jadon main sangat wich aasan te baithda haan, us wakht main thaude saareya utte is power udel da haan.

The Power in me is like a ball of fire. The heat generated during my meditation is what causes the flowers to get burned replied .Every night when I sit on meditation, the power in me builds up to such an extent that I have to let it overflow. When I sit on the aasan amongst all of you, is when I let the power now understood why people who came to the temple were getting cured without saying a word to guruji. His aura was so strong that whoever came within its range instantly felt better. Paani, chai, langar aur parshad wich meri power hai, jo milda hai khaai challo, mana na karo. Kade bhi parshad nu bandna nai.Jo parshad thanu mileya hai usnu tusi hi khaana hai, je bandoge ta na tuhada bhala howega na hi jis nu ditta, us da.

The water or the tea that you drink here, the langar and the parshad, are all infused with my power so never refuse anything that gets served here. said Guruji and most importantly never share your parshad with anyone. What I give you is for you alone and not for anyone else. If you share it then neither you nor the person you share it with get benefitted. It is then that I understood the importance of everything that got served in the temple. What others thought to be normal tea and food were actually divine amrit.

We Were Instructed by Guruji to Bring Halwa parshad for Him

We were instructed by guruji to bring halwa parshad for him to distribute among the sangat. We were also told that apart from the family and one of our maids, Saraswati, no one else was to enter the kitchen while the parshad was being cooked. We took great care to follow his instructions. My mother and I were given the duty to sweep and mop the entire house where guruji stayed as well as wash his clothes.Since we did not want to be late for our duties, the major work of preparing the parshad fell on our maid Saraswati, who too was a follower of Guruji.

The prashad used to be brought to the mandir just before the sangat started to arrive. I would then cool it enough for Guruji to distribute it with his hands. One day as soon as Guruji touched the parshad, he asked me Sukhmani, who has made the parshad today?I presumed like always, it must be Saraswati and I told him so no today the parshad is not nice,someone else has touched it.Althought he still distributed it but kept telling me it was not nice.

I never noticed anything wrong with the texture;  it looked the same as always and did not understand what was wrong . I rang up home to ask saraswati what had happened and she said that the second maid had entered the kitchen for a few minutes and she did touch the parshad.

I apologised to guruji for the mistake but was still confused as to why some people were allowed to touch his food while others were forbidden. Sensing my dilemma, he said Asi har kisi de hath da khaana nai khaa sakde.

Kise kise di vibrations negative hundi hai te khana banan de time oh vibrations khaane de wich aa jandiyan han. Main har kisi de ghar bhi nai khaa sakda, kai logan da paisa sakhat hunda hai. Sirf mainu hi pata hai kaun mera khana bana sakda hai.

GURUJI STAY IN CHANDIGARH

My mother and I were fortunate enough to serve guruji during his stay in Chandigarh. It was then that I had the opportunity to observe him from close quarters. What people in general saw; were probably his silken robes; and assumed he liked luxury and comfort, but what we saw was completely different.

The silk robes were given to him by his disciples some as a thank you for saving someone life or maybe on the marriage of some one life or maybe on the marriage of their children.

These dresses he wore once or twice and then gave them away as parshad to any one of his many followers. He had absolutely no possessions of his own except a shaving kit, which too was given by someone.

He ate simple food, half of which he distributed amongst those sitting around him. Every night, we would prepare his bed on the floor, for he never slept on the bed. Having been his disciple for many years before this, I had never seen this side of him.

His simplicity, humility and innocence put many of us to shame. I remember an incident where guruji was distributing chapattis during a stopover at his village. One chapatti fell down, and as my mother lifted it up to put it aside, he told her not to throw it and that he would eat it himself.

Such was his humility and kindness. He never ate before his sangat and never let anyone go without feeding them. No one was allowed to put money at his feet, like it is usually done in India, as a sign of respect to a saint. Whatever gifts he received from the sangat he would further distribute them. He kept nothing with himself.

That day I realized that my guru can come to me

That day I realized that my guru can come to me in any form and I may not be able to recognize him the next time. Guruji god can come to us in any from even as a beggar. We are not always polite to beggars. Please tell us how we can save ourselves from making a mistake of shunning away god if he ever comes to us in such a from. I asked Guruji feeling ashamed of the number of times I had been rude to beggars. Guruji ever so understanding replied Kuch de nai sakde ta hath jod ke man wich keh do ki maaf karo. Je oh asli sant howega ta samajh jaayega.

If you can not give anything to a beggar do not be rude. Just fold your hands and say please forgive me and if it is a saint or god in abeggars disguise he will understand. He further added Gupt daan deya karo. Is tarah daan deyo ki right hand ko pata na chale ki left haath ne kya diya hai. Hamesha left hand se daan do kyonki left hand khulla daan karta hai. Right hand hamesha sochega ki main kuch wapas rakh lawan. Gupt daan aur gupt path se garbh jooni se mukti mil jaati hai.

You must indulge in charity, but charity must be done in such a way that your right hand does not know what your left hand has given. Always give with your left hand as it will give freely. Your right hand will always want to hold some things back. He said charity and prayers done on the quiet, without anyone knowing is the only way to liberate your soul from the cycle of life and death. Guru ji what else can we we do to attain moksha? I asked help the needy feed the hungry and read the shiv puran. This is the easiest way to attain liberation in this kalyug.

Apart from giving physical darshans to his sangat

Apart from giving physical darshans to his sangat he also gave darshans on his body. The body of a Mahapurush is not ordinary. Many times a shivling and a naag have been sighted on Guruji forehead by many in the sangat.

While massaging his feet, my mother has seen lions in an embossed form on his feet, and many faces with eyes on his legs. On being asked why she sees lions on his body so often, Guruji would tell my mother that a lion is a symbol of Shiv. There were times when faces would develop on all ten finger tips of my mother that a lion is a hand.

She again asked Guruji why she was seeing such things on her hands and he would smile and tell her that they were all the different roops of shiv ji. I too was blessed with the darshans of Shirdi waale Sai Baba on Guru ji tongue. Once, on the day of shivratri, I was unable to visit Guruji in Delhi, so my mother and I decided to keep a fast instead.

We went to the market to buy some fruit along with my grandfather. Just as we parked our car in the parking lot, a sadhu knocks on the window where my grandfather was sitting. He pointed towards a jeep and said that a mahapurush is calling you. As we turned to look back, we saw a blue jeep with another sadhu sitting in it, sipping a glass of milk.

The jeep must have just materialized because there was no vehicle in the parking lot when we came and there is no way a diesel vehicle could come behind us without us hearing it. And what more we were parked at the only entrance to that market area. My grandfather got down and walked up to the jeep while I sat in the car trying to observe the mahapurush mannerism.

One day while sitting with Guruji

One day while sitting with Guruji, he told me I have blessed your grandfather with the darshans of shiv ji next is your turn. Needless to say I was on top of the world. My grandfather was a saintly man and never told anyone about his spiritual experiences.

After probing him for two long days he finally admitted to having had the darshans and all he said was that it was an amazing experience that cannot be explained in words. Every day, after visiting guruji, I would go home hoping to have shiv ji darshans.

I would clean up my room which otherwise never got cleaned, thinking shivji would probably not like coming to a messy room like mine. I made sure to wear decent night dresses every night, but still I never had It was an amazing experience to say the least and I understood what my grandfather meant when he said it can not be expressed in words.

                   

In delhi while sitting next to Guruji aasan, I suddenly felt a bit dizzy. I blinked a few times and looked up at guruji, and what I saw was something that was totally out of the world. Since I was sitting on the right hand side of guruji , I could only see his side profile.

On his face I saw a big beautiful golden eye with thick long eyelashes. As I looked in awe, Guruji smiled at me and soon everything was back to normal. I was hesitant in telling anyone of what I saw, as again, I wanted to be sure it was not my Imagination.

Guruji must have sensed my doubt, for as soon as I reached back home to Chandigarh, someone came over and gave me the narad puran describes shiv ji as the one with big beautiful golden eyes I got my answer.

After About Three Months, The Younger Brother

After about three months, the younger brother was in meditation in his prayer room that was locked from inside. Guruji called out to him and said wake up you wanted darshans of Guru Nanak and now the time has come.Guruji disappeared and for about 45 minutes this gentleman had darshans of Guru Nanak Dev ji. Later on this same person was blessed with the darshans of all the ten Sikh gurus, Meera ji and Kabir ji.

Many people in the sangat have seen Guruji in the form of Shiv ji. A friend of mine, sitting next to me in the temple, suddenly started crying. She got up and ran out as if not being able to see guruji. It seemed very strange to me as I had never witnessed anything like this before. On being asked what is causing her to cry like this, all she could say was that she could not look at Guruji eyes.His eyes are shining so bright that its blinding me. I can not see guruji sitting on the aasan, instead I see shiv ji she said. I tried to calm her down and each time I took her inside to sit among the sangat she would start to cry again. Guruji called me and told me to take her to his room and calm her down. Guruji what is wrong with her I asked I have given her the divine darshan of Shivji, but she is unable to bear it. Not everyone can handle being given a darshan, people can even go mad.This is when I realized that it is  easy for guruji to give darshans but it is not easy for us humans to  bear the impact of such an experience.